My father got his benefits reinstated, but not the back pay... YET. I now only need the letter from my doc and to update my narrative of why I should win the appeal. My therapist turned me on to EFT (tapping) and it made a HUGE difference immediately. Check out http://www.eft-alive.com/eft-therapy.html There are a lot of videos and websites about this, but going through it with my therapist was extremely helpful. It takes you to a highly agitated place and then back down. You can feel it in your body. It's not weird science, it actually works on the neural pathways of your brain and acupressure areas. SO I cried my eyes out and ended up laughing my ass off. I was using very foul language and flipping the bird and LL (therapist) and I almost peed ourselves.
Now I've been "bad" with doing this every day (like updating my blog) and I have lots of "issues" to work on. But I'm more ambitious now and have been very busy just getting things done. I'm also not taking my supplements very often and can FEEL it. So I will sign off for now and down the 27 freaking pills (or at least half) and maybe do some EFT so I can finally schedule the dentist appointments I've been putting off.
Tuesday, April 17, 2012
Wednesday, April 4, 2012
Emotional Paralysis
Yep, been a while since I posted. I was trying for a page a day and then, yanno, life gets in the way. My father fell THROUGH a glass coffee table and cut himself. It could have been much, much worse, but he's ok now. Brings back the whole "Dad Fear" that I was finally getting over, he'd been doing so well. So, off to physical therapy tomorrow to work on balance.
The VA paperwork I filled out for his yearly deal, has not gone through and they have not paid him this month. Waiting on the American Legion to check into it and call me back. Still no back pay. I found out that his Kaiser Medical Financial Aid runs out on April 17th and he can't apply again until NEXT April.
In the meantime, I've been living off of my IRA. I owe a crapload in taxes and my Long Term Disability has been denied. Standard Operating Procedure. I've been working like mad on my appeal, but all of this is making me go BACKWARDS in the jumpstarting of my life.
I can't stomach any more paperwork today. I am just paralyzed and overwhelmed. I need to find something else to do while my mind absorbs all of this. I've been sleeping too much. Sometimes it helps. I've overcommited myself for the next several days and can't get out of any of it. I'm just hoping we can blame all of this on mercury (my favorite scapegoat planet) and it will all work itself out in the next few days. In the meantime, I'm waiting on phone calls for all of this and as always, hoping for the powerball. I think instead of spinning around my house, I need to find something unimportant to do. Maybe clean the fridge?
The VA paperwork I filled out for his yearly deal, has not gone through and they have not paid him this month. Waiting on the American Legion to check into it and call me back. Still no back pay. I found out that his Kaiser Medical Financial Aid runs out on April 17th and he can't apply again until NEXT April.
In the meantime, I've been living off of my IRA. I owe a crapload in taxes and my Long Term Disability has been denied. Standard Operating Procedure. I've been working like mad on my appeal, but all of this is making me go BACKWARDS in the jumpstarting of my life.
I can't stomach any more paperwork today. I am just paralyzed and overwhelmed. I need to find something else to do while my mind absorbs all of this. I've been sleeping too much. Sometimes it helps. I've overcommited myself for the next several days and can't get out of any of it. I'm just hoping we can blame all of this on mercury (my favorite scapegoat planet) and it will all work itself out in the next few days. In the meantime, I'm waiting on phone calls for all of this and as always, hoping for the powerball. I think instead of spinning around my house, I need to find something unimportant to do. Maybe clean the fridge?
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